Well, in about 18 hours I will be undergoing my second jaw surgery. I am much more anxious and nervous this time than I was the first time. I guess it is because I know what to expect going in. Last time, I didn't want to know and so I didn't ask many questions. Now, whether I asked questions or not, I know a lot of what I will feel like and endure when I wake up.
I have to go into work tomorrow until my surgery, and I just wish I could sleep through the rest of the day. I know that it's going to crawl and drag on. I truly hope the day passes quickly. I can't eat or drink anything past 3 am, and I will be up at 6:15 am. This is going to be really tough.
As of today, the feeling is returning in the second half of my chin! This is huge news, because I was beginning to think it wasn't coming back. But it's also bittersweet, because I fear that I will go numb again after tomorrow. I may not, but this is something I don't know the answer to. I'm scared that after al this time (almost 10 weeks), I will lose feeling and have to start the nerve healing process over again. I'm scared that it won't come back the second time around.
If I could only calm the nerves and the thoughts racing through my head, tonight and tomorrow would be easier. Unfortunately, I can't turn it off. This post is jumping all over the place just like my head.
I will post updates once I am feeling better or up to it. Post your comments please!
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