I went to my oral surgeon on Friday to have him look at a spot on my surgical incision that wasn't healing properly. He told me that it looked like it was headed in the right direction and was no longer draining, so nothing to do. He said that I have another salivary gland that is stopped up to the size of a BB, but it is not worth taking out or cutting on me again.
I asked him about my swelling and if it will go away and if so how long will it take? He told me that he cannot give a definitive answer to either question. Really? So we don't know if it will EVER go away? In the back of my mind (the logical part) I know that it will and that it is just swollen due to all of the infections and surgeries I have had. But the emotional side of me is scared to death that it will never be the same. That side of my face has YET to be the same size as the other (as you can see by the very first pics I posted 7 days post op). So of course, I spent my weekend stressing, worrying, googling, taking pictures, analyzing, and studying the mirror. I'm driving myself nuts, and yet I can't help it. At some points I have felt ready to cry, and I don't cry easily. I've been through a lot these past 5 months, and I think I am near my breaking point. I do not know how much more bad news I can take before I break. I've been strong (too strong), and now it is starting to overwhelm me.
Has anyone ever felt this way? I've endured a lot of pain and cosmetic embarrassment throughout the healing process, and I can't face the idea of there being an imperfection there after all of this effort, time, pain, and money. Will it go away? Why won't he tell me for sure? What can I do to make the swelling disappear??